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THE man
THAT I LOVED
lied to me. He
told me that he loved me.
After hurting me so badly once before,
you'd think he'd change.
You'd think he truly was sorry.
THE man THAT
I LOVED
cheated. He didn't
care who he was hurting- as long as it wasn't himself.
He denied all accusations- knowing damn
well they were true.
Made no attempt to prove the rumors wrong,
because they weren't .
THE man THAT
I LOVED
Played games
with my mind to get what he wanted, not caring about my feelings.
Telling me I was the only girl he ever
truly loved.
When in reality he didn't love me at all.
THE man THAT
I LOVED
used
me. Because he know that he was my ultimate
weakness.
And he used my love for him to his advantage.
Telling others he didn't care for me.
Making a fool out of me.
THE man THAT
I LOVED
doubted my loyalty,
I was true to him-God as my witness.
Yet he didn't trust me, this because in
reality,
it was himself that he did not trust.
THE man THAT
I LOVED
Hurt me so badly,
broke my heart numerous times. I felt so helpless, so alone...
Cried myself to sleep, prayed to god for
help. Yet he hurt me again.
What did I do to deserve this agony?
THE man THAT
I LOVED
fooled me once
again, getting the ultimate pleasure out of my pain.
Making a mockery of my love, having no
shame or regrets on his damage.
Why didn't he just leave me alone, after
the first time he tore my heart in two?
THE man THAT
I LOVED
disrespected
me in every way possible, Taunting, insulting and
mocking me whenever possible. How could
I have been so foolish and naive?
How could he be so cruel?
THE man THAT
I LOVED
is
a coward. Worried on what his friends said. Didn't want them
to know how he really felt. Passing his
insecure thoughts to me.
Put his pride before anything, threw away
the love I had for him.
THE man THAT
I LOVED
lied
to me, cheated on me, played
with my mind, used me,
doubted
my loyalty, hurt me terribly,
fooled me, disrespected
me,
and showed me what a coward
he was.
THE man THAT
I LOVED
is no man. He has proven this
to me. That is why I cry, that is why I hurt.
Not because I love him tremendously, but
because he is heartless,
and there is nothing I can do about it.
THE man THAT
I LOVED
will one day realize what he
has done. And one day he will cry,
and one day he will hurt. And when that
day comes, he will think of me,
and he will repent, and it will be too
late.
THE man THAT
I LOVED
will never be a true
MAN-
until that one day comes. For
a true man knows how to accept
love without causing pain to others.
And I will find that man.
And I will Love him.
And he will Love me.
And I will hurt
no more,
and I will cry
no more,
I will he happy with
THE MAN THAT I LOVE.
APRIL-1997
***Dedicated to my ex - Marvin C. Correa***
This poem was written in a low point in my life. The anger I felt towards him
is over. I forgive him and wish him the best in his life and future endeavors.
I hope he finds somebody that he will treat with respect and honor, and whenever
he gets so much as close to treating anybody like he treated me, I hope he remembers
how his carelessness affected my life and he will think twice before doing it
again. Michelle Curiel
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